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|Friday, December 17th, 2010|
|I still exist
Yo BITCHEZ!!! Anyone still using this shit??? Lol how many years has it been since my livejournal was my life?..seems so long ago. Let me know what you have all been up to, I'm surprised I still have friends...
|Monday, May 11th, 2009|
Its been ages since I've been to this site and to be honest, I've missed having something I am commited to mantaining. Even if it is a journal that mostly contains random shit.
I took a big step and moved out in the last year with my boyfriend... this is about the time that I stopped updating my journal due to no computer and internet at my place. Things have gone up and down since then but dylan and I have been together for 2 years and are happy at the moment.
At the current time I work at KFC instead of IGA. I hate my job, and would rather be unemployeed than continue working for such nasty and selfish people. From the management down everyone there is a load of self absorbed bitches.
I'm updating my journal from my mums house cause I am staying the night for mothers day. Even though I have been back to my journal several times in the last few months, tonight is the first time I have felt like writing an entry.
More to come soon... I have been slack, sorry about neglecting my journal.
Kim Current Mood: cranky
|Thursday, December 14th, 2006|
I tried to identify the changes that had taken place between my personality and views to date, and those of a few years ago when I was younger. And surprisingly I can remember little about who I used to be and what used to matter to me the most. How obsessed I have become with my own little present day world...though I still indentify the fact that I have grown and matured in the way I choose to look at life. Largely I've tried to adopt an attitude and outlook of "live for the moment" trying not to dwell on my own past, other peoples pasts and future expectations, doubts, insecurities and events. Mostly this has stemmed from the fact that I am sick of having my life ruled by every little thought and reflection on past and future happenings and potential grievances. All of which constantly creep up on the edge of my thoughts and serve only to frustrate and anger me, distracting me from what is actually happening around me at that precise moment. This technique works well when I am at work, though perhaps in a slightly altered way to how it was first intended. When combined with my persistent denial of the presence of a clock time seems to fly by without recognition of it having even have taken as long as it did to complete my shift. You see if I do not know the time and think not of it, then I cannot be frustrated by how long I have worked or how long I still have to work because both amounts are unknown to me. However in real life and concerning real people this view on life feels rather narrow minded and shallow. Ideally if every person took on this view of life, the world would have no problems neither with ourselves or with others. No one would be held accountable for their past actions to any level nor would anyone suspect or be wary of a repercussion of the same behaviour, because every individual moment that has passed, including the thoughts and observations applicable to each situation, both of others and of self, would no longer hold any relevance to the present happenings in which we become entangled. It is hard to maintain this attitude when those around you persist in doing the complete opposite by choosing to hold everyone around them hostage to their own thoughts, feelings, views and suspicions that arise from observations in human nature.
Another successful psychological observation complete. Oh how I love to screw and mess around with the boundaries and limitations of being human.
|Sunday, December 10th, 2006|
I'm planning on updating my journal once more, the past half year has been full of ups and downs but overall it has been the busiest part of my life thus far. I will gradually update on my half a year away from livejournal but not today. For now there are some current things I would like to comment on.
Well, yr 12 has finished and it is highly overrated. Despite all the promises of continued friendship and staying in touch, I have been completely alone from the moment all our parties ended and we went back to our separate lives. I wanted so much to feel like people would still seek me out and involve me even though they didn't have to see me every day...but it just hasn't happened. Through my annoyance and frustration at my predicament and at several occasions where I have been with my "friends" and have been practically ignored, I seem only to have managed to alienate people. Is it so bad to have expectations of friendship? Or should I just let it all wash over me and accept the shit if it only gives me a chance to become involved in peoples lives? Its sad how all the wonderful moments we shared together and all the deep meaningful things we all spewed upon each other in the last two weeks of school have now amounted to nothing.
I auditioned for the Acting course at USQ, didn't get into that but got into Theatre Studies instead and received my letter of acceptance early this week. So I'm going to UNI!!! WoOO Not really, I will be constantly thinking about what the actors are doing and how much I would love to be a part of that.
My 18th is coming up and I'm looking forward to it! It symbolizes so much in a persons life...legally drinking alcohol...which means I will be the man when it comes to supplying my drinking buddies at parties! ;-) I'm having a big open party the week after my birthday which should be good. I wanted to do the whole go to the pub and buy my first legal drink with my parents and obligatory dinner out with the family. My auntie is moving to Brisbane and I have a sneaking suspicion that her and my cousins will want to come and visit for my birthday but I don't particularly want them to. It has been two - three years since I've even spoken to her and I feel not close family connection with her or any of my cousins, so there really would be no purpose to it, it would just be uncomfortable if they did.
Hope you all have a safe Christmas holidays and enjoy your new year...though not to much *winks* lol I KNOW I'M GOING OUT FRICKEN PARTYING!!!!! Thank god I'm 18 the day before (30 dec).
|Thursday, July 6th, 2006|
Our beautiful Canadian exchange student has left Australia, and now who will I have to entertain me through the boring routine of school? Canada is lucky to have you girl…you’re a true Aussie at heart. We'll get your senior shirt to you, I'll make the student council pay for it.
|Monday, June 19th, 2006|
Friends are people who you use when you need them for either, some emotional value or temporary happiness. They do the same with you when they need you. The definition of the word friend has changed indeed.
|Saturday, June 3rd, 2006|
Year 12...the shiterific year of school...Work sucks, Friends rule ...sort of, bastards!
|Saturday, May 27th, 2006|
Today I thought we should all be more civilised and refrain from saying the word shit. If you are struggling with this concept, here are some helpful alternatives:
“What a load of feces”
“Do not talk such bowel movement to me!!!”
“Today I had to put up with a lot of excrement”
“Put that down you little poo!”
|Friday, May 19th, 2006|
I just don't get how people can ignore you completely one moment and then be surprised when you are annoyed at them later. Somehow I think I just hate people sometimes for no reason.
|Saturday, May 13th, 2006|
Lately I've had an obsession with music! I love the way a song can say exactly what you're feeling at the time, both when our sad or happy, plus there are varying degrees to either side of those two options. Sometime I think it’s awesome to be an actor and a musician at the same time, the actor helps you to get into the mood of the song, to feel it and become absorbed. And it can be the most wonderful feeling sometimes! I just wish I knew how to use my voice properly.
God: You've stepped in dog poo, you smell and I will not bestow my holy words upon you until you wipe it on the grass or something
Man: But god!!
Man: Oh, right (wipes poo off on the grass) Sorry god...I was absorbed in my self pitty.
Something random, cant be explained because there is no explanation and is therefore unexplainable:
Unexplainable things = Confusion = world scale confusion = universal confusion = large-scale war with no purpose = death of everyone alive = no humans = no pollution = the world would be better off without us anyway! WEEEE We're all dead!
|Thursday, May 11th, 2006|
I had a semi happy day today, and learnt that everyone else seems to have as radical mood swings as me, that or I do something right now and again that seems to impress people. Today was quite a normal day everyone was really normal towards me and no one got up me for anything! All my teachers were quite nice towards me today, especially during musical practise as well! Which went awesomely, MY FAITH IN THIS MUSICAL HAS BEEN RESTORED!!! The unthinkable has happened, I was so sure it was doomed for failure...but it turns out that my school might be able to produce something half decent. Woo to them! No really, this heralds a first for my school...
Anyways, goals for the rest of the year are to lose weight for both my formal and acting auditions, get singing lesson, licence, and do well enough at school to get into a different course if acting doesn't work out.
|Saturday, May 6th, 2006|
Ok guys, this is the script to my first year 12 assignment. I wrote up all the stage directions for the script and wrote the whole script up for the entire group. I take credit for this because I got hardly any from the drama class. If you don't understand this, it is the form of theatre called Brecht. There is a series of explanations at the end of the script that will help you understand this a whole lot more. I take FULL Credit for the explanation at the end of the script because each member of our group had to submit their own justification.
So go! Read my lovely human being that are there for the sole purpose of reading and commenting on my word for the purpose of ego stroking...
( First year 12 practical assessment. The scriptCollapse )
Ok, an interesting game I recommend to you all is the third person game. Every person participating in the game must refer to himself or herself in third person. All self-references must be made in third person otherwise every other member of the game hits you. Its fun because you get to see other people being bashed up, if your really good at the game you get to also bash the other people who are not as mentally up to playing the game.
|Thursday, April 13th, 2006|
|Drunk bungy jumping...yes.
Could anyone even slightly imagine how completely not cool drunk bungy jumping would be? Sorry, question that really amused me. You see my father is home and we were having very silly conversations about nothing again.
|I have a movie, tis the first half of the first half of my life...
If you filmed your entire life on a video camera, you would only be able to watch the first half of your life. To be able to do that you would have to know exactly when you were going to die. Without this knowledge, you would not be able to determine a mid point in your life where you can start watching the first half of your life. Because what would happen if say, you started watching your life’s movie at about 50, thinking it was a pretty accurate mid way point, but you died at 75. You would only watch half of the first half of your life. This would most probably make you forget what happened in the second half of the first half of your life before you started watching the video. Watching the first half of your life, in entirety, would take half a lifetime. Therefore the second half of the video of your life would be footage of you watching the first half of your life. Which...would be completely pointless, because you would die and never see the second half of your life and no one else would want to watch a person staring at a screen watching the first half of his or her life.
|Monday, April 10th, 2006|
I feel very sick at the moment. First time in about half a year and it had to happen when at last the awaited holidays begin! Cursed I am indeed.
|Saturday, April 8th, 2006|
I just have to say that I love my new display picture! Me and my friend John, it looks rather like I'm trying to stab him in the neck whist he strokes my beard and avoids being mortally wounded...
Big thanks to Marie, Shyla, Jo and Alex who got through all the bitchyness and created the best drama performance for the first assessment of year 12! To fill all you guys in I will post a script on my journal after I have finished completing it.
|Sunday, March 26th, 2006|
|People...the gecko is gone!
Why is there a gecko on my wall? Tell me, why at 1:02 am would a gecko suddenly be staring down upon me in a very spooky unmoving way. Seriously, it hasn’t moved in about 10 minutes, its just staring at me…Its pretty awesome though. If I had power in my camera batteries I would contemplate taking a photo of it. Oooh, I just thought of something! Stupid line I just thought up for a character in drama, total airhead – “does a photographic memory come with a digital print?”
People...the gecko is gone! Its just fricken gone! It didn't move an inch for ten minutes then when I stopped looking and looked again sometime later...it disappeared! For all I know...it could be in my bed...
|Thursday, March 16th, 2006|
Here are some photos from Year 12 Camp! I had much funness, except towards the middle of the week when things got really crap. People were getting tired and being bitchy and some secret little talky thing happened and everyone who was in on it was crying and upset. I had been off crying on my own while this was happening because I was upset about being ignored and excluded by the rest of my TIP group and also the year 8's wouldn't listen to me but would listen to the other TIP leaders. Several times this forced me to tell the other leaders my ideas and they had to suggest them for the year 8's to agree anything I deemed a good idea. I was pissed off, I was tired and the people who were all crying didn't go to bed until 12.00 at night and I ended up yelling at them and telling them that I just wanted to go to fuckin sleep! After they had all come to bed they sat there and whispered all night which kept me awake and eventually I just had enough and got up and went for a walk, I came back and they still hadn't shut up so I didn't sleep until 2 in the morning. I hated the attention everyone else was getting for being upset when for a whole day and a half I was miserable and no one cared because they were all to busy drooling over the more popular people who were crying about whatever happened in the secret little talky session. I rang my mum and had a huge cry, which made me feel a bit better.
On the whole the camp was exciting, there were some really great parts where things just worked really well and I talked to heaps of people who I wouldn't have really chosen to talk to usually! Camp has sort of brought into perspective the fact that at the end of this year I will never see any of them again.
( there are 180 photos but you cant see all of them!!Collapse )
|Saturday, March 11th, 2006|
I wonder what noise fly’s would make if they could vocalise.
I've spent the week at camp and am now extremely tired. I had a big sleep last night after I got back from camp still I felt like crap. This morning but had to go to work where, for the first time since I've worked at IGA, I was asked to work the entire day. So now I have progressed for exhausted to FUCKEN exhausted and I have to go to a party tonight. Yes, have to go because its a close friends birthday party and I would feel guilty if I didn't go. I think I'll only stay for a couple of hours and then come home and sleep well into tomorrow! I'm way to tired and don't have the time to do a proper update about camp, but I have taken 186 photos and will post the best ones a full update tomorrow night or Monday.
Farewell my dear friends, I'm going to sleep for and hour then get ready for the party...